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	slug: crying
	translates: crying
	lang: en
	title: Songs i have cried my silly little heart out to
	pageCreated: "2021-01-23"
	pageUpdated: "2026-01-11"

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	h1 songs i have cried my #[br] silly little heart out to
	span.centre (In approximately chronological order)
	span.centre Or, “Xanthe gets outed as a zoomer”

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	h2 Youth immemorial

	ul
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTPtDFxQgn4")
				b why me?
				| 
				i linda martin
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/TpdRtIM45ts")
				b the voice
				| 
				i eimear quinn
			| I don’t know what it is about ’90s-era Irish Eurovision winners that made seven-year-old me burst into tears. They still make me tear up a bit… simpler times.

	h2 The tens
	ul
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/Hu0xlyLwK7Q")
				b me
				| 
				i the 1975
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/KsGp64w3XsA")
				b you
				| 
				i the 1975
			| (Excluding the hidden track, which isn’t their best and might even be plagiarised from #[+sc('M83')])

		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/k0Z6IxOeuMk")
				b i always wanna die (sometimes)
				| 
				i the 1975
			| Fairly sure this song might have actually saved my life as a struggling teenager.
			br
			q Your death, it won’t happen to you; it happens to your family and your friends — #[b i refuse]
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/5bfseWNmlds")
				b sleepyhead
				| 
				i passion pit
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/EcSvMFm2ABE")
				b motion picture soundtrack
				| 
				i radiohead
			| This is the only song on this list that can #[em consistently] drive me to tears. Doesn’t matter where, doesn’t matter when. I listen to this and i collapse. Bonus points if it’s the #[a(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WE1V6a8NMKs") early piano demo].
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/6SMjUB9LSuw")
				b paracetamol
				| 
				i declan m#[small c]kenna
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/WUIm01odei0")
				b girls like you
				| 
				i the naked and famous
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/_3ngiSxVCBs")
				b sweden
				| 
				i c418
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/j4EeT-jzo3c")
				b équinoxe
				| 
				i c418
			| “Hey man, do you wanna come on the server and build a rollercoaster?”
			br
			| [Last online 3 years ago]

	h2 The pandemic
	ul
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/Oyhxw8cFt0U")
				b lostmyhead
				| 
				i the 1975
			| This isn’t really about the song. I went to their concert early in 2020, before the world shut down, and if i just shut my eyes, turned off the lights, and played this — i could pretend to be back there, just for a moment.

		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/WSnc_6Z7HqQ")
				b true love waits
				| 
				i radiohead
			q I’m not living — i’m just killing time
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/T7t38uDUg5E")
				b codex
				| 
				i radiohead
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/YN19SG0EojQ")
				b don’t worry
				| 
				i the 1975 & tim healy
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/l0Jo-9aqhYc")
				b mirror
				| 
				i porter robinson
			q And it’s not the voice of all the others — you’ve only said it to yourself
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/F1TiN-dBSxY")
				b dawn chorus
				| 
				i thom yorke
			q I think i miss something — but i don’t know what
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/hQZfGa5t4e8")
				b 13 angels standing guard round the side of your bed
				| 
				i a sweet mt zion
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://youtu.be/xHotXbGZiFY")
				b white woman’s instagram
				| 
				i bo burnham
			| I realise that this is an inherently ridiculous song, but the pandemic did strange things to people’s brains.

		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzH6toY_EPw")
				b the last man on earth
				| 
				i wolf alice
		li
			a.big-link(lang="is" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnAwPeqrdAk")
				b hoppípolla
				| 
				i sigur rós
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IoiX8ncN8-k")
				b this must be the place (naïve melody)
				| 
				i talking heads
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NeOhV4zOxJ4")
				b the chicken
				| 
				i bo burnham
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-GVnrnqoZ7o")
				b triple dog dare
				| 
				i lucy dacus
	h2 The mid-twenties
	ul
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRAqRsV0Mv8")
				b untitled (samskeyti)
				| 
				i sigur rós, live at the bbc
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jry1OuZJNL8")
				b(lang="nl" title="We are so young") we zijn zo jong
				| 
				i gorki
			q(lang="nl" title="There is still a sea of time in the show that is your life") In de show van je leven is er een zee van tijd
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EGTD7azzWk")
				b sleep
				| 
				i godspeed you! black emperor
			q Things changed, you see. They don’t sleep anymore on the beach.
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjAJcOipNpY")
				b nearer, my god, to thee
				| 
				i sarah f. adams
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2RnxZnubCM")
				b my heart will go on
				| 
				i celine dion
			| I always feel conned when a big studio film makes me cry. I know the tricks! I know what they’re doing! And then somehow i still cried three times at #[i Titanic].
			br
			a(href="https://youtu.be/5hXG1tBFIi8?t=27")
				i “And so they lived, happily together, for 300 years, in the land of #[span(lang="ga") Tír na nÓg] — land of eternal youth and beauty…”
				|  😭
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Z_NvVMUcG8")
				b let down
				| 
				i radiohead
			q One day, i am gonna grow wings — a chemical reaction
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEBlaMOmKV4")
				b a change is gonna come
				| 
				i sam cooke
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mp5gksq_OEI")
				b venus, bringer of peace
				| 
				i gustav holst
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zccutrnwZn4")
				b transgender dysphoria blues
				| 
				i against me
			q And you know it’s obvious, but we can’t choose how we’re made
	h2 The latter twenties
	ul
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LY9FeF_4Bhw")
				b i could have done more
				| 
				i john williams and itzhak perlman
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seAKj4F49jw")
				b ok
				| 
				i jon brion
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=649wWWkW_1o")
				b strange fruit
				| 
				i billie holiday
			q Scent of magnolias sweet and fresh — then the sudden smell of burning flesh
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MuOhduGOqdw")
				b lippy kids
				| 
				i elbow
			| Elbow are my mam’s favourite band, so there’s a lot of childhood memories wrapped up in there just waiting for the right moment to break the dam and release the floodgates…
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVktrPv5zW4")
				b thoughts of you
				| 
				i dennis wilson
			q The sunshine blinded me this morning
			br
			| The way the song crescendos and then crashes so painfully back down to earth… i mean, Jesus.
		li
			a.big-link(href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f45yDddYePg")
				b the downward spiral
				| 
				i nine inch nails
			q A lifetime of fucking things up, fixed — in one determined flash